I used to...

I miss blogging so much.
I used to post a lot when I was in uni.
I used to have lots to post when I was in uni.
but now it seems like I have nothing to post anymore.
That X factor is missing.
That something is loss.

Feeling all loss. I need a gps.

31st October.

Its the last day of October.
October used to be a very happy month for the past few years.
Not now anymore.
Dont get me wrong. I did not mean for the celebration all that.
I like to celebrate for other people but i dont like people celebrate on me.
I dont like to become the centre of attention during an event.
I just want to be a part of it, and that will be enough.
This post is however not about that. HAHA.

As we grow older,
the minds and thinkings all changed.
I fall in deep love with more practical and down to earth stuff.
Like....
A loafer that comfortable enough for my feet. :p

Things changed.
Nothing will stays the same.

I keep on trying to forget the bad part.
I am trying to let go of the word "I".

Keep Calm & yoga.

Random

Today i just feel like a loser. a jerk.

That's all.

Wednesday

I am back to my starting point.
Everything will resume as usual just with a different lifestyle.
Family surrounded. Comfort zone.
I feel very lonely though.
Used to hang out in a big group.
Gossiping. Updates.
Now it all left memories.
This time for real. Everyone have to go on with their own life.
Their own journey.
I am back to my starting point.
This time. Independent.
I found and read some inspiring stories in blogs.
but i only get inspired for that 10 minutes.
The next, everything is forgotten.
I still hesitate and dont want to make my next move.
I scare my decision is wrong.
I scare I wasted my time.
But recall again, the time wasted before this is worth it.
I get to see other people's place and working culture and even experiencing living alone in a "dangerous" community or crime rate higher place.
It was an experience that I will not forget.
After all of the worried living by myself sometime, here i am back at the warm nest.
This is what I want right? So no more ranting of want go there etc.
I am not knowing my next step now.
Just try to live happily everyday until i figure out what's next. haha!

Super Short Trip With Meensya

As the post title itself shows, yes I went to KL with Meensya for around 48 hours only. Time and schedule very packed.  We bought the ticket during AA promo last year. I thought I will burn it like the Penang and Tawau ticket. Deepest condolences to the tickets. : ) However, no worries. The best is yet to come. Always be positive yaw~ 

The breakkie on saturday at Wangsa Maju Section 2 food stall. Rc's siew mai bun and konlomee. Vegetarian chee cheong fun for me. Whenever I had this, it always remind me the stall in Damai open space food court. I once asked for a plain chee cheong fun with no meat. It is simple and easy. You made one with no meat then charge me for a slightly low price. I am glad to pay you. Its a win win situation. You get your money, I get my food. But sigh. With a " no we dont have", you lose one customer. Not business minded at all. Same like a shop in one of the mall in KK, i went there with my cousin. She have the screen protector just that she wants the seller to help apply the screen protector and she dont mind to pay for the service. But this chinese guy looks like a grown up man said, "we dont have this service". You get what I mean. Even few bucks also money what. Ok, back to the post.

Ashtray

All these comfortness and surrounding have lead me almost to ashtray.
I keep on holding to my faith that i must not fail.
I must find one thing... that one factor that I keep on searching.
I feel like this place not belong to me in a matter of I want you so much.
But my true senses keep on whispering to my ear, that I have much more responsibilities here.
My vanguard started to weaken as days gone by.
It falls apart day by day.
But when everyday i saw the parents', I knew it.
I know the road is still long... its a long winding road.
Im glad i found a passion to release my stress.
Its the yoga. =)
The status now is I am still in holidays mood. =D haha
I just want you to know. I will not give up.
I will keep on searching what I want to do.
.............
Today chat with you. Thanks for your words. Its inspired much.
Well, hopes everyone reading this have a good week ahead.

He said, keberjayaan.

Its a sleepless night. Whenever i close my eyes, all these visions come alive in my mind, in my brain. I have this stupid habit everynight. He told me, then you dont close ur eyes. Haih. It makes sense though. So i does not want to close my eyes now  i rather stay awake until i fall asleep naturally. My laptop have been send for service. As those that have known it earlier, my lptop keyboard was spilled with coffee on March and now October only i send for repair. Yes i admit i am always delay in handling my things. Which i feel despair over all my faulty actions. I now carrying a note book whenever i go. I have so many to do list which i have been delaying until now. Until today i havent go for my medical check up. :( its daunting i dont want to go.  I am becoming more chicken nowadays. I have so many things in my mind i feel i cant breath. And everyday i am feeling tired. Am i having some weird syndrome here? :( I keep telling myself everything is different this time. But in the end actually the world still keep turning around every seconds and wth i keep on yelling around  dono what to do how to do i am tired. I feel my life is a failure. But when i look people around me. I know i am far more better and i should be grateful that what i want is actually in front of me right now -family. He said, give and take. You get kejayaan, u lose kebahagiaan. You get kebahagian, u lose kebahagiaan. And now i get kebahagian. I should learn to get my kejayaan. My mind still a mess. I need time. I still need time to digest everything. Thank you for ur support all these time  I know u have been a great listener and supporter all these while. I always said you weak and noob. But in the end i realised i am the one who weak and noob. I believe everyone have a desperate stage in their life. I guess this is mine now. I will get out of these all slowly. Please dont rush me. Give me time. Good night.

JB-Malacca-KL | Day 3

16 Sep 2013 Monday

Happy Malaysia Day.

The day was more to wave good bye to Johor and headed back to Malacca.
Had some lunch there, then took a bus and back to KL.
The quick lunch was these...
Nadeje crepes...
the thousand layers cake.
but I personally prefer the normal cakes lah.... : ))

Legoland | Day 2

15 Sep 2013 Sunday

Our day two in JB is to the Medini.

It’s the Legoland day!

We spent the whole day playing the games and wandered around the lego theme park.

Initially there were only three of us but yes!! Edmund also joined us that day.

We have our transport that day so we just headed to the theme park according to the gps.

Its lot easier to reach the destination because there are signboard along the road. 

Hello... an inverted L for lego : )